February 28, 2011

Lights Will Guide You Home And Ignite Your Bones And I Will Try To Fix You

There are some things I have to say to you. You know who you are. I want to say this as a friend, not as the girlfriend you know. I feel I need to say this to you, because I want you to be happy, more than anything else. The person I've come to know is beautiful inside and out and my love for you is not restricted to being your girlfriend. And if you were one of my best pals, which you are, but if you were ONLY my best friend I would say...

Hearts break. Sometimes without rhyme or reason. Sometimes with all of that and more. And when a heart breaks it never breaks even. Nevertheless, it brings with it a physical pain that cannot be penned down, and in those times you'd rather have that physical pain than be numb. The pain is reminder that you had something worthwhile to feel the pain for. It's OK. I will tell you what my best friend told me some 10 years back. "It will be alright, trust me. Just breathe, love."
Just. Breathe. Letting go has never been easy, but nobody said you have to let go. The heart is magical, it really has enough room for all your loved ones. Time heals all wounds. And yours will heal too. Meanwhile, I will help you pick those pieces up. No matter how long this takes we will slowly and steadily put those pieces back together, one at a time. And when you think you're free falling into a daze or rock bottom, I'll catch your every fall.
Man, these times are hard. But we'll sit up all night and drink beer. Eat Pizza. Say things we wouldn't say otherwise. And talk and smile even when we want to cry. Hurl insults at Life. Watch the sunrise wash over us.  Pass Out. We'll spend weekends talking about your "Jesus." Spill coffee, answer all your questions. And when you break down, I'll tell you to hold your head up high and not look back and ...believe, because that is all that is in our hands. I'll take you to far away places with my stories. And play those silly games of ours. And Listen to you till you want to talk no more. Sleep. Repeat till one day you wake up all healed.

I'm right here. Don't worry. This is for you.



6 comments:

Tai Tai said...

Popping over from FLOB. Wow - that post was amazing. Hope your other half is ok and getting through what he needs to. No doubt you're an amazing rock for him x

upasana said...

Sometimes a :) is enough!

Maryx said...

What a lucky person he is to have someone like you in his life... you're words are wise. It WILL be alright. And I think I also needed to hear this today. A lot of people do.

Subtle Expressions said...

Just LOVED this one. it almost makes me want to be in that spot, so I can hopefully find the one who would guide me home and offer to fix everything....

PG said...

Lets hope you NEVER have to be in a pot like that! But if you ever are, you know I'm here :)

PG said...

spot*

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